I used to love the holidays, I guess in a way I still look forward to them but not as much as I used to and I am hoping that it’s just this year and not future holidays next year. I used to love Christmas shopping for family and friends. I loved the feeling and fondness the cold air brought, and the reminder that it’s almost Christmas where usually I’d be smiling ear to ear. This year is different and I’m not sure why. I just was not into the shopping thing so I did all my shopping online which made me feel lazy. Our annual Christmas dinner for friends isn’t exciting me like it used to either. This is a time where I get excited to see the faces of friends that I only see one or twice a year and it’s usually at this dinner, not really excited. I want to get Christmas done and over with and I don’t like that this is how I feel right now.
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I have the holiday blues 😦
I think the icing on the cake is my brother and my sister-in-law. They come every year for Christmas, they usually do this whole late in the game thing too where they call everyone the beginning of December to give us their Christmas list and ask us for ours. Now I know Christmas isn’t all about giving and receiving gifts but it annoys me to no end that they do this every year and it’s because they wait so late that unless we ask for an easily accessible DVD or video game, we aren’t getting ANYTHING we want or asked for so they waste all this money on gifts we don’t even know what to do with and they end up sitting in Christmas closet hell for eternity. We usually opt to give them to donation bins the following Christmas if we can find them in the closet of horrors. So this year is the ultimate slap in the face from them. Not only have they still not gotten back to us on if they are even coming this year or not, but they haven’t given anyone ideas on what they want and vice versa in case they DO show up.
At this point I am hoping they don’t even bother because they aren’t going to get anything from anyone at this point if they come and everyone will feel bad opening gifts around them. Not only that, everyone in the family except them HATES shopping a day or so before Christmas and now they are forcing us to do so if we DO decide to go out and get them stuff which is down right rude in my opinion. I even went out of my way to find things to give them that are plentiful and easy to find. As of yesterday everything I would have asked for is out of stock online and in stores. Awesome. I just don’t want anyone wasting money on things we don’t want and won’t use and I don’t want to have to spend an entire day going from place to place to find what THEY want either and they happen to be the most difficult people to shop for (besides my father, who at 72 has just about everything so it’s hard to think of anything he doesn’t already have).
The other thorn in my side is my cousin and I don’t care if she sees this or not because she needs to know. I feel like she is greedy and ungrateful. YEP, I said it and I’m not the only one who feels this way. I couldn’t believe my e
ars when last year, my sister and I who usually spoil her and have no budget set for her on Christmas got her a bunch of stuff and at one point she had receives one gift from me and maybe 4 gifts from my sister (we were not done unwrapping gifts so there were more to come) and she goes, “Geez thanks Tabby (my sister), you got me all this stuff and Nikki only got me ONE THING.” EXCUSE ME? Are you fucking kidding me? First of all you should be happy you even got ONE thing to begin with as ONE thing is better than NONE. She doesn’t realize that the audacity of her statement set off me, my sister, and both of our boyfriends who were wedged between us all looking at each other like ‘did those words seriously just come out of her mouth?’
She needs a wake up call and that wake up call is that she should be happy to get anything from anyone in general be it one thing or 20 things. She needs to realize that her idea of “splurging” isn’t anything that can light a candle next to my sister and I’s idea of splurging. Her idea of “expensive” is ludicrous as well and don’t get me wrong everyone has different budgets and ideas on what’s expensive and what’s not and that is absolutely fine but NOT when you are ungrateful and don’t 
do nearly the same as anyone else does for you and not when you bitch and moan about the amount of things you got. She would prefer a bunch of things over one or two of quality, longevity and something she actually really needs that’s relatively expensive. So this year I gave MYSELF a wake-up call and that is that all this time, all these years of us buying her a load of stuff for Christmas, she was a student in college barely making it and it was never an issue and Tabby and I never expected much in return from her ever and now she is a full time worker who lives with her mother and pays her own bills but doesn’t pay rent (as far as I know), never has money to properly plan for anything or DO anything she is fully aware of months in advance, like Christmas for instance, it comes once a year and I’m not sure if she knows that or not but she has a YEAR to plan ahead for it and she chooses not to. She has plenty of money to go out with her friends and go to bars on the weekends but somehow she is always broke when we need to pay for ANYTHING else.
Thanks for listening to me bitch. Felt good to get that off my chest.
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